I'm really feeling very URGHed now.

Was talking to Sihui on msn. Everything she said is true? And that was what Yiwen said today?

I'm just waiting to see what happens this saturday and whether you still remember or not. Do you really mean what you say? No calls, no msges, even when I msged you twice today. And since you didnt say anything, I shall just keep thinking the way I'm currently thinking right now- I'm just another irritating girl whom you dont wish to reply / waste your msges on. It's not that I dont care anymore or anything. It's just that, you're not doing anything about what you've said. Maybe it's because you dont mean it. But if you dont, then why do you still say that? You say you mean it, I believed you, but now I dont know whether what you said was the truth. It also isnt because I dont believe or trust you & what you say. It just seems like you're saying that for the sake of saying it. You didnt seem that happy 11 days later. Well, it's been 13 days and we've only seen each other once and, you didnt seem that happy. I went high after I saw you. You said we wont be spending much time together because of things like exams, studies and stuff. Of course, I was sad too. Okay, that, I could understand. You're having a big exam this year. Then I thought about it again. You go out with your friends. It's not that I dont want you to go out with your friends. I'm also not trying to say that you should / have to go out with me and not your friends. But you go out almost everyday? Okay, maybe not everyday but very often. The last time we went out together was before the 13th of June.

Bishan is just a few stops away & you would rather go home to watch tv. If I knew that that was what you were gonna do after telling me that you would come and look for me, I'd rather go straight home, while my dad could still fetch me. On your birthday, I baked for you. I was supposed to meet you but in the end, my mother didnt let me out. You said you'll look for me but you didnt. Nvm, I didnt mind. It wasnt the first time anw. The next day, in school after we collected our report books, Sihui & I waited for you for I dont know how long. We thought you were in school. You didnt reply our msges. Neither did you answer our calls. Finally, we gave up & went home. When you finally called, you said you were sleeping for the whole afternoon. The next day, yes, I was very happy we finally met. Those werent the only times where things like this happened. Ahh, you know what, I'll shut up.

I think that what my friends told me today really is true. I really hope that things change soon without anyone (including me) having to tell you how I'm feeling right now. Patience, I have. Maybe I'm just being a little too sensitive.

I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
->21:51

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